10:51 PM
Not too sure why I'd thought of posting again.. But it's probably because the feeling in me is growing stronger.
A few days ago, I came across a local music producer/composer HYR's blog and I began reading his posts all the way back to those dated 2009 or sth. The way he expresses himself is really interesting, and Im really quite envious of his 'I dont have to please everyone' attitude. Well, it sounds a little cocky but if used appropriately I think this attitude can actually help us to handle things that are way out of our control. Apart from that, reading his posts abt his thoughts on music production, the current declining music industry and all things music actually inspired me to want to do sth abt this interest/hobby of mine. I cant say Im the best pianist or drummer or guitarist or singer (maybe in my family, I can) but I genuinely feel that I can actually do sth with this passion of mine. And not just let it coop up in me and fade away as time goes by while 'there are better things to do in life' slowly gets to me. I feel that I have let too much past me by in my short 19 years of living to give up on this little passion of mine that is still burning somewhere in there. But here comes the but's. After what seemed like numerous times of trying, I still have no idea where Im headed towards. Maybe I just need someone to guide me along, someone who can tell me what's wrong. Like every other person, if I wna improve, I need constructive criticisms. I dont really knw where to start though. But i have an idea in mind - start being thick skinned hahaha. HYR said that being thick skinned could be the very first step to realizing any of the so-called dreams. We have to go out there and shove ourselves in the faces of the right ppl. Those who are not neccessarily 'big shots' but who can still help us in one way or another. And yea, who knws? Maybe that will be it hahaha. Like it or not, Ive got to admit it's a trying time for me right now. I have no idea why I got a little affected earlier on by this
huge quagmire that I thought I have gotten myself into. But I guess it all comes down to courage. Like how the students in Dream High fought their way out of the many issues they faced to become the best. Yea, the courage.
The courage to pursue my dream.
.a song without t-une
