12:22 AM
heartovermind.
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it's so weird how my actions contradict my words. possessiveness? idk man. this things are so out of my league. cant seem to understand any of it :s i didnt think id behave the way i did, i was surprised by myself. or shocked. maybe i needed some attention? hahaha sounds like some childish spoilt kid. i need to get over it-soon.
and then i wonder why i like to push ppl away. not a 'like', but i just do. i realised that i have the tendency to do that since i was..idk, p4? but i nv got to knw why. character? idk, probably.
Went to ms yeo's hse for bbq ytd. not much of a bbq for me since i couldnt eat any of those food. still cant. we went for a swim before that in her condo. more like a dip actl. just sat at the jacuzzi area for the whole time, cuz the water was warm there. the pool was freaking cold :s then we bathed and went to play guitar hero in ms yeo's hse :D love drums man haha so long since i touched them. no, so long since my sticks touched them. not that it was the real drum set.. at least i got to play with drum pads :D haha still prefer the real drum set though :) i had bread for dinner, since i couldnt eat anything barbecued food. then the rest were starving so we went to the bbq pit. took like..15min to find the pit luh-.- it was..as good as out of sight. i sat arnd eating some dried er. i forgot what's that thing. while kelly and sam waited patiently to be served by our juniors-.- haha they didnt get to eat much though:/ then the three of us went to the exercise area and started working out haha not for real lah duh. we just slacked off and it became so damn boring idk what we were doing. we decided to play bball but the 10mx10m small court (it appeared to be that small at least) was occupied by a guy. just one. but it looked too small for another 3 and a half to join. the half being ms yeo's 1yr plus son. he's so freaaaaakin cute >< hahahh! so we went back to the pit again-.- then we decided that we were better off being rockers in the hse-.- so we went back up to the hse with yvonne and jingying. and ms yeo's other kid. kids are a nuisance during guitar hero sessions. but he was...nt that bad. in comparison to the other kids that came along after that :s hahaha so that's abt it-.- wasnt a fruitful day, hahaha.
my cough sucks. i wna eat kfc D:
and im so sad, it's dec again D:
sigh
k byebye
.a song without t-une