Not too sure why I'd thought of posting again.. But it's probably because the feeling in me is growing stronger.

A few days ago, I came across a local music producer/composer HYR's blog and I began reading his posts all the way back to those dated 2009 or sth. The way he expresses himself is really interesting, and Im really quite envious of his 'I dont have to please everyone' attitude. Well, it sounds a little cocky but if used appropriately I think this attitude can actually help us to handle things that are way out of our control. Apart from that, reading his posts abt his thoughts on music production, the current declining music industry and all things music actually inspired me to want to do sth abt this interest/hobby of mine. I cant say Im the best pianist or drummer or guitarist or singer (maybe in my family, I can) but I genuinely feel that I can actually do sth with this passion of mine. And not just let it coop up in me and fade away as time goes by while 'there are better things to do in life' slowly gets to me. I feel that I have let too much past me by in my short 19 years of living to give up on this little passion of mine that is still burning somewhere in there. But here comes the but's. After what seemed like numerous times of trying, I still have no idea where Im headed towards. Maybe I just need someone to guide me along, someone who can tell me what's wrong. Like every other person, if I wna improve, I need constructive criticisms. I dont really knw where to start though. But i have an idea in mind - start being thick skinned hahaha. HYR said that being thick skinned could be the very first step to realizing any of the so-called dreams. We have to go out there and shove ourselves in the faces of the right ppl. Those who are not neccessarily 'big shots' but who can still help us in one way or another. And yea, who knws? Maybe that will be it hahaha. Like it or not, Ive got to admit it's a trying time for me right now. I have no idea why I got a little affected earlier on by this huge quagmire that I thought I have gotten myself into. But I guess it all comes down to courage. Like how the students in Dream High fought their way out of the many issues they faced to become the best. Yea, the courage.

The courage to pursue my dream.

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I was wired differently.
At least I'd like to think that way.

But I cant face this side of me.
So Im letting it slowly fade away.


It's sth I kept running away from,
sth that I wouldnt admit to.
But I think it's time to face the truth.



I'd changed.

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It's only the first day of sch and it's scaring the shit out of me alr :(

Sigh
I wish I didnt have to go to sch.
At least not this sch..
Feels like some vicious cycle all of a sudden.


OH WELL.




Just fail all 3 tests and get on with lifeeee melissaaaa weeeeeeee.

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GOODBYE 09, HELLO 10 :(

Im so sad 09 has just ended, and idk how to embrace 10 omgzx:(
hahahha what a way to start a newwww yr:/

I went to the countdown thingy at my neighbourhood to watch the performances there since i have no plans of partying and am gna be stuck at home the whole night-.- the crowd was..ZZZDEAD. But it's hilarious how the singers tried to get ppl to wave their hands in the air and no one moved HAHA super funny. There were like super a lot of singers from campus superstar/superstar/band performing there. I think the performance is still on now? (12.15am)Hahaha. I was v impressed with Cai Aijia's perf manzx, she's damn powerful! Or at least she sounded that way just now. The sound system helped i guess. But she's good man. But im so sad i missed Milubing's perf D: D: There's this guy who sang this Ahma song which made me miss my ahma a lot :( 5years alr manzx, sighh. And the Chen Yiyuan kept appearing, I wonder why ahaha but he's good too :)


Idk why this new yr feels different:/ hahaha

But still,
HAPPY NEW YEAR PULL YOUR EARRRRRRRR!^^

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omg im in love with zhang yun jing !! ><
she's so cute omg i cant stand it! hahaha okay the cuteness is just average but she's very...real. i like^^ HAHAHA but her hei qun zi song kinda freaks me out, idk why :s and there's very few videos of her speaking..it's all her competition videos zz but nvm hahaha shitzz, FANDOM.

went for trng today, did weights! hate the V-sit ups, i can nv do it properly! ): after sec2 i was kinda..excused from doing it. and cuz of that, ive nv really done it at all zz after i came home i just slacked arnd and watched taohuaxiaomei. i think i was lying in a very awkward position and i pulled some..thing on my right shoulder-.- seriously getting old omgzx. anw, i was too tired so i slept and i woke up when the mio tv ppl were here. they were friendly la, but i wasnt exactly awake yet so i was like ._. and i did sth quite embarrassing in front of them :s but whatever!

trng tmr AGAIN. 3 consecutive days -.- but at least it's self trng tmr. my muscles have been sooo tight since mac trng ytd. i think it's the result of not cooling down properly last wk :( :( and did i mention how bad mac trng was-.- actl the trng was damn easy but i guess im too unfit or whatever. kelly and i were dying...and resisting the urge to puke-.- and mr p was like 'go melissa!' today when i was doing shoulder press HAHA sigh, fate of the senior centizen(s) zz i think we're getting old and muddle-headED. we did like..triceps(?) exercise instead of the correct back shoulder press exercise. walao damn embarrassing-.-

come to think of it, maybe it's because of the front shoulder press/wrong exercise that my shoulder hurts :s







OKAYYYYY. I NEED TO START DOING WORKKKKK. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

but not now.
i shall go spazz over zyj first :D
HAHA GOODNIGHT.

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heartovermind.
?




it's so weird how my actions contradict my words. possessiveness? idk man. this things are so out of my league. cant seem to understand any of it :s i didnt think id behave the way i did, i was surprised by myself. or shocked. maybe i needed some attention? hahaha sounds like some childish spoilt kid. i need to get over it-soon.

and then i wonder why i like to push ppl away. not a 'like', but i just do. i realised that i have the tendency to do that since i was..idk, p4? but i nv got to knw why. character? idk, probably.




Went to ms yeo's hse for bbq ytd. not much of a bbq for me since i couldnt eat any of those food. still cant. we went for a swim before that in her condo. more like a dip actl. just sat at the jacuzzi area for the whole time, cuz the water was warm there. the pool was freaking cold :s then we bathed and went to play guitar hero in ms yeo's hse :D love drums man haha so long since i touched them. no, so long since my sticks touched them. not that it was the real drum set.. at least i got to play with drum pads :D haha still prefer the real drum set though :) i had bread for dinner, since i couldnt eat anything barbecued food. then the rest were starving so we went to the bbq pit. took like..15min to find the pit luh-.- it was..as good as out of sight. i sat arnd eating some dried er. i forgot what's that thing. while kelly and sam waited patiently to be served by our juniors-.- haha they didnt get to eat much though:/ then the three of us went to the exercise area and started working out haha not for real lah duh. we just slacked off and it became so damn boring idk what we were doing. we decided to play bball but the 10mx10m small court (it appeared to be that small at least) was occupied by a guy. just one. but it looked too small for another 3 and a half to join. the half being ms yeo's 1yr plus son. he's so freaaaaakin cute >< hahahh! so we went back to the pit again-.- then we decided that we were better off being rockers in the hse-.- so we went back up to the hse with yvonne and jingying. and ms yeo's other kid. kids are a nuisance during guitar hero sessions. but he was...nt that bad. in comparison to the other kids that came along after that :s hahaha so that's abt it-.- wasnt a fruitful day, hahaha.

my cough sucks. i wna eat kfc D:
and im so sad, it's dec again D:
sigh



k byebye

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The H3 list is so disgusting.

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watched 2012
idk what's the word but i felt so sucked into the movie, like i'm feeling and seeing the things for real. sounds stupid i knw. but my head was full of my family, which nv ever happened, so it kinda made me :S eww. and even weirder, i realised throughout the movie i was pulling myself back into reality, telling myself 'ohman it's just a movie, A MOVIE' -.- -.- idk what happened to me man. though quite expected, it's still a good movie, to me. didnt feel like an almost3hr movie, which is enough to prove my point.
but the bad part is....the after effects were quite horrible. i felt so upset after that, for whatever reasons. and when i got home, it just..really got me.
THAT'S WHY im online to watch my haipaitianxinep4 before i decide that i dont feel like sleeping again. i look like a frreakkkkinnnn panda alr zz

Almost didnt wna get up for trng today cuz everywhere was aching. but i did :) and i was glad that trng was slackkkkk. but i think i screwed my back up once again. it hurts everytime my right foot lands now. which sucks. and i just found out that someone else is injured too. seems like a lot of ppl are getting injured. take careee!

Went to collect my passport in the afternoon. The place closes at 430 so i thought it'd be safe to reach at 330. I was so darn wrong-.- i expected to get the thing done by 5 or so? but apparently there's exceptionally many ppl today according to a conv i overheard where the uncle was saying 'it looks like a camp here! normally when i come there's much lesser ppl' zz tough luck.

When i reach the place, i couldnt even find a place to stand. I just stood almost in the middle of nowhere and started reading my book. just borrowed three new books on sunday. i realised i go for mysteries and..suspense more than anything else idk why haha back to passport. yea my queue number was 8565, and at 340pm it was at 8000. idk what was wrong with me but i had the impression that my queue number was 8050+, probably cuz i saw it too quickly. so when i realised it was a 500 ppl away, i was devastated-.- and that's an understatement. so i started doing the math, then i realised it might probably take me almost 3 hrs to get it done. and i might be late for 2012. so i wanted to call my mum to ask how long does 500 normally take. THEN i realised I DIDNT BRING MY PHONE.
...
i felt so...zzzzz, seriously
i realised i wouldnt be able to contact keh ching or sarah-.- but whatever, i thought that could wait. so i went on reading my book. but it was damn irritating whenever i look up and the queue number on the board only jumped by 10places after so many pages. and i was standing for the first, 2 hrs? it took 45min for the first 100! i wanted to die D: and cuz i didnt have my phone, i had to sneak peeks at ppl's watches for the time. thought of asking for the time but i realised if i were gna do that, i'll be doing that for 3hrs. so i decided to just snoop arnd-.-

the second hundred took 30min, the third hundred took..i forgot. but when it was my turn, it was 620pm. i felt SO RELIEVED. if the person could get it done by 630, i'd be on my way to cine. 2012 was at 640 zz but sth in the printer went wrong and i had to wait somemore. just a mere 5 min, but it felt like forever.

Nevertheless, caught the movie just in time. traded that off with my glamness of walking down orchard. i practically sprinted my way there.

but at least the movie was good haha


SO NOW, HPTXep4 :)

BYEBYE.

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"I dont knw you,


Idk what im feeling, but i hate SM. Seriously.
I wish this was a joke they're playing on the guys.



:(




but i think i love you"

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Just finished YAB ep14! Ended at the sad part, as expected:/

haha i think i need to watch dramas when they're not fully out yet, then i'll be able to finish watching the whole of it. normally i give up halfway-.- like BOF, i havent even finished watching it HAHA-.-

Packed my table and drawers ytd night, threw away all the stuff that have been there for years-.- idk why i liked to keep useless things last time, momentos maybe? doesnt seem that impt to me anymore. it felt like i was in some whirlpool throughout the packing, like i was runmmaging through my past. and apparently i wasnt hesistant on discarding most things. i saw papers which had my pri sch friends' names on it, the ppl that have long been out of my life. but their faces still came into my mind then, which really surprised me:/ haha come to think of it, it'd be good if i were to start taking interest in capturing moments with photos. Then it wouldnt be so hard on my head to rmb every single person I knw haha

Well, i wasnt out to cheat my mum of her money but she agreed to pay me 10bucks an hr if i ironed the clothes. So i did! but only for an hr-.- cuz there wasnt enough clothes for me to iron any long than that! i think she was the one cheating me instead-.- ahhaha 10BUCKS ONLY D: i was wishing i could stand there for 10hrs ironing, then i'll get a 100bucks :D but no, i wouldnt be able to take it-.- i dont mind ironing an hr each day though :D good money and i can save myself from being scolded!

Then I went to pack my notes and tidy up my other table! supposedly the computer table..but ive got no computers at home anymore-.- it really gives me a sense of accomplishment to be able to see the table top HAHA i was supposed to vacuum the whole hse but my mum ended up doing it afterall :D idk why my mum's suddenly thanking me for ironing the clothes....yes, right now-.-

OH WELL.

I need to return my library books by tmr. Wanted to ask someone out to go with me today but idk who to ask, and idk where to go-.- so i ended up here typing this rubbish. Maybe i'll go later? or maybe tmr haha saturday nights are good when my dad doesnt fight with me for the remote control. but that's seldom the case-.-

Idk why i suddenly wish i could go on typing forever and ever. but i really got nth else to say. maybe tonight? haha zz my mum just cleverly ignored my request to go for Seoul'd Out-.-

"The love that you are feeling is genuine, and returnable, but if you place too many restrictions on it in advance, it can not move forward. You know this is the real deal, so why are you avoiding it?"

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Ohman, im at the sad part of You're Beautiful :(
it's the first time ive come this close to tearing while watching it:(
ahh my jeremyyyyyyyyy :((
...
okay I shall stop watching now, before sth bad happens again
(tk and mn just kissed! WOOTS)
^^

today was yet another boring day.. i was so bored i wanted to pull my own hair-.- keh and i wanted to watch 2012 but the process of getting some ppl to go with us was SO difficult-.- then i became really sian and decided not to watch anymore-.- besides, 'you're sick and the weather is so cold, you shdnt go to places like the cinema! you'll feel worse!' quotes my mum. like seriously-.-

i ended up watching tv half the day and then finished reading my book and decided the medicine was taking effect after like..idk, 3hrs? idk why it took so long for me to feel drowsy today, maybe cuz i drank the wrong amt ytd:/ i took 20ml instead of 10:/:/ imagine the state i was in tuition.....HAHA my ans were all wrong-.-

Okay, so i slept for awhile until my mum called and woke me up-.- i hate being woken up! D: but i still went back to sleep. Then..I watched bai fen bai when i woke up haha that's like my ultimate entertainment every single day-.- unless i find sth nice randomly. this morning i was watching channel u's 'end of transmission' (which really means 'there's no show') it's quite interesting i guess, snippets of different variety shows. just that they all repeat themselves. then i realised i was watching the same clips over and over and i didnt mind that-.- i cant believe i was bored till that extent. Wanted to play the piano, but my dear sis was sound asleep-.- she touched down at..5am i think? I was contemplating ytd night whether i shd go fetch her with my parents this morning. I think i was crazy. Anyhow, i ended up not going anw LOL so she came home and she slept until 5pm-.- thanks to me, who was nice enough not to play the piano.

And the reason i havent mentioned the computer is cuz i have no computers at home right now, THAT'S WHY I FEEL SO FREAKING BORED EVERYDAY. I only get to use my dad's laptop when he comes home. which is like..almost10pm?
Everyone asks how i survive without the com. I really dont knw man. And that's the reason why i might be making up imaginary friends soon-.- HAHA k im joking.

I realised my medicine for after dinner still isnt taking effect-.- maybe my body is immune to it. Come to think of it, Ive been taking the same medicine since..July-.- on and off la, but still! It's possible for my body to get used to the effects right....? I didnt take medicine for lunch though..cuz i didnt eat lunch HAHA my mum will kill me if she finds out-.-


OHWELL. it's almost 1am, GOODMORNING.
im gna sleep.

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I managed to play the whole Happy Bday song on my piano today :)
Idk why I could nv get the right chords last time,
maybe I just couldnt be bothered-.-
Haha, seems like just ytd that I hated piano :/

Had the cca leaders camp thing these two days
Ytd was okay, the speakers had fun anecdotes to share and good jokes/videos to crack us up hahaha but we skipped the games part though. i was in pain anw, luckily i left:/
today was different, the talks weretotally boring. or maybe i just didnt have the mood to listen. I was playing with Peilih's itouch and she was playing with my iphone. i broke all her tracknfield records WOOTS! HAHA if only it could happen in real life-.- hahaha

did i mention they provided really good refreshments! that was all i was looking forward to all day AHAHA -.- plus lunch maybe, but lunch is not as interesting as the refreshments. yes im a pig!
Missed dragon boating today cuz of various reasons. but mostly cuz im having flu and cough and my throat is sore from all the coughing zz
it was so embarrassing ytd when the speaker told us to close our eyes and visualise scenes that could help us and i had to start coughing halfway through when everyone were deep into their visualisation-.- so i had to leave the LT to cough and die outside by myself-.- Peilih ended up sleeping though. she's a pig too!
anw, back to dragon boating. heard the kallang waters are horrible, SO I SHALL NOT REGRET NOT GOING FOR DRAGON BOATING FOR WHATEVER REASONS :)

we left after lunch, after all that we were looking forward to ended haha
came home and read my book, then i slept and got woken up by the drillings that's been going on for..idk, months? It seriously gets on my last freaking nerve when it wakes me up from my sleep and stops me from going back to sleep. I think i got headaches trying to sleep while the drillings were on, rather than not being able to sleep at all-.-
maybe i shall migrate to my ahma's hse, then maybe i can have my peace -.- maybe i'll do so tmr zzzz
I need to start doing sth meaningful, besides trng-.- which currently means little to me. I doubt i can go for trng on thur, thanks to my wonderfully strong immune system. AISH i need to self motivate-.-
First, to self motivate, you need to SET GOALS. (says the speaker ytd)
GOALS?
survive trng first.
then pack up all my stuff maybe-.- actl i might nv get to doing that. and stop shopping. I feel like im gna get addicted to shopping soon if i dont curb myself-.- luckily im not rich, if not......HAHA


Some ppl are getting on my nerves, i really dont knw why :( it's my fault, but i cant help myself :( well, i've been through enough to knw that this will happen eventually. but, is it really a...fault? my fault?




Im going back to watching YAB, ilovetaekyung! :D

i hope ep 4 for hai pai tian xin comes out soon too. im in need of entertainment D: (not from ppl, dont get me wrong and start msging me-.-)


GOODTHENIGHT:)

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Im so sick of you, 7 letter r word.




Today has been SO SIAN.
My younger sis is in China, my mum and elder sis are in Taiwan.
Im home alone with PAPA
but he came home at like 11pm,
which is like zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
oh well. but i went out to shop today :)
with mich and twins! haha
twins were very nice to keep helping me choose clothes :)
mich was more or less just concerned abt 'vest 1 or vest 2???'
but she was fun too :D
haha oh well. i got nice clothes, happy :)
aish, at least shopping with them cleared my mind for half the day
not that i had a lot on my mind
i was just..damn sian
and now im even more sian zz

i saw my pri sch friend whom i havent met for 4yrs. i took quite long to recover from my own shock-.- but im still very happy to have seen her :D
and i saw jaime too! :)

This is gna sound damn random but.
My uncle is damn nice, seriously. Hahaha


Okay, that's abt it.



Actl i just like to wish i had the chance of even trying
but deep down I knw i dont deserve any of those
that's why im just..watching
i guess that's good enough

and i guess it's not all abt you yet.

i wish i had a say in it, i wish i knew i'd regret my decision
i wish i could travel back in time.

but i guess this is life
it seems like ytd that i told someone to move on

and now, it's all empty inside.

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You're too smart.


Went to train in the morning with kehtan.
Failed trng -.- ahaha
Then we met Peilih and Tong for lunch.
Keh is damn loser!! I felt so sneaky hiding arnd with her LOL
Okay.. then we left for My Sister's Keeper.
The plot was..normal
but i still cried
it was quite interesting
and we kept hearing ppl sniffing throughout the movie ahhaha
the movie's got good build-ups of emotions
touching :)
and i love Taylor!!
He's so charming omgzx HAHA
If I was Kate, I'd feel so lucky! Considering that they were both sick :/
Then we left for home. I felt so damn sleepy cuz i cried-.-
When I reached my gate, I realised I didnt bring my keys -.-
so I sat outside my house for slightly less than 1.5hrs
memorizing my OP script HAHA
DAMN SIAN PLS.

IM SO HAPPY THERE'S SCH TMR :D :D






imy.

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even if the sky is falling down, (:


why do i feel like we just separated
when we nv knew each other
omg im disillusioned again :(
hahahaha
oh well
my phone died, the buttons arent working
since this morning
and i had like 9msgs which i couldnt read
so..sorry those who expected a reply :/
and my sister was being anal
i dont even knw if i will have a phone to use tmr
damn sian-.-
there's bio tutorial tmr
why do i feel like we're going back into hell.
i dont wna get back any papers
no
no no
nono
no
:(
what a dread.
at least we're getting math back tmr..
which means if ive done badly,
tmr's gna be a real bad day.
cuz it's math zz

i hope they keep mr loo loo with us :( i want him :(
and my back hurts after running today, idk why.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
today was super slack, or a waste of time
but fac breakfast was quite interesting hahaha
oh well :)





you'll be my only, dont need to worry
baby are you down down down down down

love the song haha :D

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lolatmyself,


somehow i wished things were back to before promos,
everything seemed so..perfect(?) then
maybe i was disillusioned HAHA -.-
but then again, studying for promos was a torture
so i guess i dont exactly wna go back in time
i just..wish things werent going down down down and downer
idk why this is happening,
tried convincing myself that im just pmsing
but i guess im not very convinced by myself
there shd be sth more to this
which i refuse to admit right now hahaha
ya ya sometimes i need to self deny too zz
so there, life sucks right now ):
i have nth to do tmr,
even though i kinda begged my pw grp leader to have pw meeting
but there still isnt-.-
so im stuck at home againnnnnnnn
Mich asked me to go play badminton tmr with Meiling and her
Shall see if im motivated to work my muscles again
after bball last friday
John and Kelly played against Junde and I,
and John is super hilarious, like always-.-
And obviously Junde and I won both of them :D
Junde was unexpectedly good O:
John is a noob cake,
(i shall not mention abt Kelly since she's my dear best friend HAHA)
heard he got 3/4 shots after his 1/15 shot but since we didnt see them for ourselves
too bad! hahaha
We (Sam Peilih Keh Bel Me) played tennis before that too,
at arnd 12 noon-.-
so at abt 6pm on friday i looked like some cooked prawn
at 7pm i realised i got sunburnt
and from then on i feel permanently hot-.-

I got new sch shoes today
got quite excited until everything started screwing up
lol we're back to square one,
where i wish things werent going down down down and downer
HAHA
suddenly i wish i could do OP without speaking
it'd be so much easier for me to convey my thoughts zz
But then that'll be OP without the O-.-
OH WELL im not making sense anymore
cuz it's 0045 -.- hahaha


, and idk why it hurts.



GOODNIGHTWORLD:)

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blogger is being weird again D:

idk why im here, but since im here i figured i shd type sth
it's gna be friday in 28min
and it's not helping ):
i dont even have 28 days to promos anymore ):
sianzx hahaha
my mum actl told me i dont need to study so much,
even if i fail, it isnt the end
there's so many things i can do without passing my year 1
ahhaha how true is that
but the fact that it came from my mum is a miracle in itself
what a weird day
gotta reach sch at 8plus tmr just to show dear mr loo my wonderful tutorials
i so guai of cuz ive done them right! tskk
what a waste of time
then ive gotta rush to tuition and waste 3hrs there
cuz my brain just doesnt work in the morning D:
oh well enough of all these
i shall go sleep now :D


NIGHTTTTTT, (:

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I wish life was easier,



I wish I was thinking too much
I wish life was just abt sch play friends and fun
I wish I nv had to think abt such things

I dont wna lose my respect for you.





How tough can life be, right?


liarshit.

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Maybe I was forced to grow up too quickly,



Today was damn sian, but fun at the same time. Stuck at home alone with very little food. So I made full use of all the food I had. And by nine pm i was dying of hunger-.-
I played a lot of piano today :D it's so fun omg :)
I hope I can finish studying econs by tmr, if not i'll just die. Yet again-.-
I dont knw what Im thinking now, I feel like im being confused by nothing -.-
Idk what im saying.

Tu Ran Hen Xiang Ni is very nice:)



Elaine: HAHAH yes im shocked too O: but im more shocked that you're here O:





I just dont want to see everything to fall into pieces,

Will you be my Almighty forever?

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Today is happy day :D

Omg I cant believe Im listening to Fantasie Impromtu by some 7 yr old prodigy on youtube
I think the music influence is getting to me O:
And I feel so inferior when I listen to Fabian, Michelle, twins and others play the piano
They're damn good omgzxzz D: hahahah shall be motivated and start working my fat fingers-.- my fingers are seriously getting senile zz

Anw, GEMs at Ros' hse was fun :D
I met ocs early in the morning at 830 o'clock, I really didnt wna wake up omg zz-.- then we took bus to Potong Pasir station and waited for Fabian who appeared at the wrong side of the road-.- HAHA then we walked to Ros' hse.. Her hse so ulu, will be quite scary if it was at night -.-
After we met the others, we went to NTUC to get the ingredients
Fabian was damn funny, he kept making us get extra ingredients 'in case we screw up mah!' LOL really screwed up lor, really. I think Ros can like make another cake with the ingredients left in her hse la hahaha!
I think we talked a bit loud when we were looking for the ingredients, cuz some auntie came and offered to help us find the brown sugar haha! But it's was super nice of her, TY AUNTIE:)
(random thought: how long have i last posted abt my day O.O )
Then omg, classic joke of the yr
Eight of us squeezed into Ros' mum's car
Me and Trix in front, and the other six in the rear
Plus Ros' mum, nine ppl in the car
The backseat was chaos, Fabian ended up sitting on ocs' laps and his legs cramped up halfway HAHAH the funniest part was the expressions ppl gave us when they saw the situation in the car LOL Im so glad I was sitting in the front :P
Then we slacked arnd in the hse and Ck taught me how to play the guitar :D
Just like.. 5 chords in total-.- to the 'There she goes, there she goes again' song LOL but i took quite some time to get it right, huge burden on my poor fingerszz haha
Then we played cards until the rest came and we started to bake :)
Couldnt really do much cuz there were too many ppl in the kitchen-.- so I went to buy lunch with ocs instead. Damn funny, he almost didnt have money to pay for the food-.- and I was laughing at him cuz he doesnt have any direction sense even though he claims that 'my sense of direction is damn good' LOL
Omg Im damn sleepy, I really wna sleep D:
I think I'll continue this tmr, goodthenight zz :)

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OKAY, let me continue :)
ocs and I went to 7eleven and we started thinking of all ways to steal HAHA-.-
I realised ocs doesnt like toy monkeys-.- they re so cute LA!
On our way back we saw Yq, so we walked to Ros' hse together:)
I was telling Cs that if we dont see Jh sitting in the living room, it means Mr Heng has reached HAHA and true enough, when we went in, we saw Jh outside the kitchen and we found that Mr Heng was in the kitchen :p
After lunch and first round of baking, everyone proceeded to do their own things
We brought down the mahjong stuff and they started playing. I still dont really get how the game goes but yea :)
Oh then we started the second round of baking:) I got a little irritated at some point of time due to certain reasons but ah, didnt allow things to spoil my mood:)
Another funny part of the day was when we started playing twister, it was damn hilarious omgzx. I missed the round where Mr Heng played though, WASTED. I heard he was damn funny :p
We tried all ways to twist the ppl up, even if it meant cheating hahah we were having so much fun :D I realised Mr Heng looks very cute when he laughs! O: hahaha
Thenthenthen! Hmmm.
I cant rmb what we did. Think we just tasted the FRUITS OF OUR LABOUR (the jelly hearts which tasted different from what I always eat but still quite nice :D Im glad we didnt screw up with the cookies and jelly hearts haha) and started playing TABOO hahah another funny part of the day. The guys are seriously super entertaining, esp when Fabian was describing the word LOL
and idk why suddenly everyone decided that it's time to leave so we left-.- LOL
My mum sent me a msg that read 'what time come home t eat dinner than come home' yes, her eng is atrocious-.- Idk why but I thought she meant there's dinner at home so I was happily heading home BUT in the end she said there wasnt-.- so I ended up at amk hub eating dinner with ocs-.- he insisted that even if he doesnt have money to take a bus home, he'd rather walk than borrow money from me zz he and his very impt pride and honour-.- hahaha he's damn funny. After dinner we just roamed abt amk aimlessly, idk why. But okay la, quite fun hahah :)

OKAY SO THAT WAS MY DAYYYYYYY (YTDAYY) :D


Today, I forced myself to wake up at ten, almost eleven. Yes, it was really difficult zz then I watched tv until 12 and i played the piano until 2-.- I ate my lunch and studied until 4 sth and knocked out until 6 when I forced myself to wake up again and then I studied again and played the piano again zzzzzomg meaningless life HAHA oh well :D


CHEMSPATMRZZgoodnighttt.




I knw I want it but
dont be so nice to me ):

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Do I not deserve to be your friend? ):



Hello everyone(:
(does anyone even read my blog HAHA o.o)
Today was okay......
Packed as usual
I got irritated abt the math assignment we took today
Cuz when I finally figured out the method for qns2,
I couldnt find the ans
And I did the qns for two times,
still got same results-.-
So I got irritated LOL
AHYAAA.
CT was quite funny, some guy came to talk abt stress management
Think the school called him cuz they knw their students are dying-.-
but good, Apollo and Ares were in audi :D
I feel like a stalker sometimes...
BUT IM NOT-.-
I just like, observing :)
HAHA
Took bus with Michelle and Jinyao to woodlands/marsling
I tell you, 961 is full of weird ppl omg
But nvm
Michelle has interesting anecdotes, damn entertaining HAHA
Sian, I've concluded that:

I have no friends D:

And Michelle shd stop laughing at me cuz I have no friends-.-



Just a little something
To light up my life
But I feel quite affected by it
Yet I cant help but to let it be
So sad
puzzled
irritated
all at once
Why me? Hahaha


I want you and your beautiful soul;
):

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fouryearslaterinyourshoes. it smells so much worse.



I nv knew my first post after so freaking long would be this emo.
I wish you could see this right now.


I nv meant to.






ITTIRL.



have you ever felt regret?

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I dont want sch to really start, omgg


Amazingly, I havent seen any of my pri sch friends in HC yet. Okay, it's only the 2nd day anw, I have a lot more chances to do so-.- Im slowly starting to dread sch, this is not a good start. I really need some motivation zz

I seriously wanna do sth abt it, but it seems like I always have no chance to do so. Sometimes I try, but I get stuck. The tunes dont come. At least not that often. And everything would sound so familiar to what Ive been listening to (obviously). And everything is always so last minute.

Everything has its time, maybe the time just isnt right yet.


Or maybe I just need to find the right people.






G. UITAR

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It's the time of the year again.. January sucks shit.

I trust you.
I trust us to pull through.






You're the one keeping me there, making me feel that I can take more than just 6x200m.

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I HAVE NO LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE











D:

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Im damn excited :O omgomgomg.. HAHAHA:D my mum cooked a lot of good food!:D no, Im not excited abt that-.- Im excited abt going to the airport HAHA^^





Random but really cute photo:D



/tagreplies
jy: :D
alina: How does a banana smile like? HAHAHA yesyes :D :D :D
Charis: No lah, suan her for what^^ Lol, what wear dress? I said that before? I don't rmb anything hahaha! Oh well, have FUNNNN in S'pore! :p




Don't cry yourselVES to sleep when you miss me too much! Hahaha :D
(Yes, yknw Im just joking, pls don't spam)








BYEBYES'PORE, HELLOJAPAN^^

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HEYYYYYYY :DDDD
Guess who is this!!!
HEHE
The winner gets house keys from Mel wee! MUAHAHAHA

"Who blogs like tt" says white clouds. ^^

hello:D heeheeheee.
this is in bold.
melwee is bald.
and she likes usain bolt. (pi)
pi pi pi pi pi ! guess who :D

Yes, there are two people here! I am the captain and she is the commander.
Uh, there are two people in our team.
Not including our cap, Mel wee. :D:D

It's lateeee
We shall get going!
"Nobody will come one" says white clouds (WC).
HA!

You don't know that... :D:D

what is the last sentence means?

Shit, commander. You just leaked your identity. Let's hope readers of white clouds' blog are stupid. :)

I sound too intelligent, don't I!

Commander, stop making weird noises (i.e. burping)

mel wee, you look gay with the pink slippers.

"I have no choice. My feet sweats. T_T"

Feet sweat. Pigs sweat. Human beings perspire.
HEEEE

Okay we really gotta goooo :(
BYEBYEBYEBYE

Ahnyeong!
Sayonara!

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GOODBYE1398



I can do better than this.
I knw I can.



I just need time.

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HELLO HELLOOOOOOO MELWEE IS BEING NAUGHTY. SHE'S SUPPOSED TO BE DOING MATHS NOW..BUT. BUT SHE'S NOT DOING MATH. >( TSSSKKK. SHE WANTS ME TO INTRODUCE MYSELF BUT I THINK I PREFER TO BE ANONYMOUS!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D


gay leh.


"Do not state my name," Says Anonymous. :D:D:D:D:D




I LOVE FABER DRIVEEEEEEEE:D:D:D:D:D:D

I DONT KNW WHO IS THATTTTTTTT

they're a band omg:D:D:D:D






The chronicles of.....life without GG.
Tsk man. he's forever SICCKKK. >( AND WE DON'T GET DIFFERENTIATION!!!!

walao he cheats my feelings, i didnt wanna come sch D: D: D:
ALL THE BLOODY (8-LETTER T WORD) CHEAT MY FEELINGS PLS!!#$%^&*
ROARRRR.
Im pregnant.


i wonder who's...hmm.


PARK YOOCHUN'S!^^
^^
^^
^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^
omg they look like birds....

LOOK AT THIS!
~^.^~
walao damn gay.






walao eh, she left me here alone talking to myself.
FINE LA-.-
im so damn bored... zzz



life is unfair.

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:D MCR concert ytd! The crowd was CRAZYYYYYYYYYY. and i mean CRAZY. I swear I thought I'd die right there-.- The concert was awesome! I loved the atmosphere. Although there's this fear that's always there. It's like you might just get pushed onto the ground and get trampled to death anytime-.- I almost kissed a woman before the concert even started, THAT was how close everyone was standing-.- They started an hr late and the spot we were in was like ~!#$%^& vulgar-.- okay, so was MCR but it didnt feel as bad when it came from them:p I was really mesmerized by the lead singer somehow^^ OH and I lost like 80bucks, ftw. Probably when the crowd got really crazy-.- Believe me, I could literally FEEL the guy who stood behind me. Well okay, he was jumping-.- TRAGIC, but there was no other choice.

Track farewell tmr. What I need is more than just luck.



And maybe time do change things.

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when you cant find the last key, it doesnt mean you're last

[:

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